Ask me anything

Jessica
❁ sun in Virgo ❁
❁ moon in Aries ❁
❁ rising Scorpio ❁
❁ Me ❁
❁ Ask me anything! ❁



Posted 03 Jun 2012 at 14:08
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saturninefilms: It’s so odd.  Sometimes, when I’m browsing Tumblr especially, I randomly come across sentiments like this one.  They momentarily make me feel so radically alone and isolated in myself.  I ask, “What the fuck have I been doing?” when I look at (literally) over 500 hours that I’ve spent working on different videos lately. The answer:  Bettering myself. When I actually leave my computer area, when I log out of Tumblr, I get this overwhelming feeling of contentedness by myself that never used to exist.  It’s so strange.  I actually like being alone again.  I don’t get the urge to hurt myself anymore.  I don’t hate every fiber of my being like I used to. Because, at the end of the day, you can’t do that shit forever.  You have to cut your losses, you have to accept the things in your life that you can’t change, and you just have to keep moving.  Always.  Get better.  Learn new things.  Be better. Always be better than you were yesterday. It’s a constant tug-of-war between my brain and my heart and up until now I’ve always let my heart win.  I’ve always compromised myself, compromised my artistic output, in order to unlock something in somebody else that already exists in me.  Fuck that, though, because you know what?  I’m strange somehow and I love me because I’m strange. For fuck’s sake, that’s good enough. I don’t need someone else to validate my ego anymore.  It’s hard coming to terms with such a dramatic change of self, but I don’t give a fuck if I’m loved by some girl anymore, no matter what girl it is.  I don’t need to be loved by anybody, to be honest with you. I just don’t.  I’ve developed personal strength by discovering myself, way more than I ever could have alongside someone else.  I used to be codependent,  I used to think that expressing love was all that mattered in life (and in some ways, that’s remained true.)  There are different kinds of love, you know, and they’re all awesome. I can get by with platonic love and the occasional local fling that won’t ever go anywhere.  There is more to life than trying to be perfect for someone else. Learn to be perfect for yourself, motherfucker.  
Posted 03 Jun 2012 at 13:53
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crack-d: i painted something like this a while back!
Posted 03 Jun 2012 at 01:40
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athinktankofonesown: Sea creature revisited I by *Immy-is-Thinking
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Posted 03 Jun 2012 at 01:08
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Stoney Jess,
Posted 03 Jun 2012 at 00:46
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Pretty high , just floatin’ on by.

Posted 03 Jun 2012 at 00:44
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Posted 03 Jun 2012 at 00:42
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someone come save me from this boredom
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